RecapitulationOr plain recap for short.
2004 served as the buffer for the wild ride that was 2003 and the hopefully better year of 2005.
This year I:
...tried to tabula rasa the memories of my love life until I came to realize how futile that was. Not to sound esoteric or anything but perhaps the whole fiasco/farce happened for a reason. Of course, I'm still searching for said reason, but that's beside the point.
...learned that trying to have it both ways leaves Jill with no one. Choose woman!
...gathered my bearings academics wise. No more flunking 5 unit subjects for me, no siree (I hope!).
...finally became gracious in accepting compliments. (What? You think I'm good looking? Thanks. I think so too :)
...accepted the sad fact that I am and will always be a NERD. That's right a N-E-R-D.
...again accepted the sad fact that my actions are not mine alone and that they will definitely affect those I hold most dear. So for you who kept on asking "Why are you even thinking about it?!" It's because I have a brain stupid! That's exactly what it's there for.
...became comfortable with my lola-manang-idiotic-grinning-supladita-bratinella-guilt stricken and utterly fabulous self.
...said "Kung ayaw mo, wag mo!" and really meant it. Boy did that feel good.
...found myself on the other side of the fence and tried to be kind. I am still trying.
...set up a public blog and thoroughly enjoyed myself throughout the entire process.
...grew my hair long and became a better person for it.
Obviously, I have ran out of things to say thus the last sentence.
I have high hopes for 2005. I'll be in fourth year come June (yey!) but I won't be graduating yet by 2006, I, ummm, love UP Law that much. Seriously though, I'm just thrilled that I made it this far considering all the drama that happened. What can I say? I'm the bomb.
I also have high hopes for my family for the upcoming year (that would be tomorrow). I sincerely hope that by this time next year the living room would still be polluted with toys and that the neighborhood kids would still be streaming in and out of our house, led by our little monster. As my mom said this morning "Please God, just a little earthquake. Just a little tsunami. Just enough to make them stay".
But my most fervent prayer goes out to our country and to the disaster-stricken Asian countries. Here's hoping that 2005 will bring a kinder Mother Nature and that every day that passes will see us recuperating from what the last two months brought with them.
So here's to you 2004 and welcome 2005! Cheers!